Chapter 179 SONIAS POV ire night .
I was awake , alone with my thoughts .
When the first light of the day eventually came , I was entirely exhausted .
I barely slept the entire I closed my eyes , ready to catch whatever sleep I could .
But all I could see were images of Ramon floating in my head .
I couldnt understand why I kept on thinking about him .
My soul was supposed to be at rest , right ? I was supposed to be happy after such a long time .
After all , I was finally back home .
However , it wasnt the way I envisioned .
My treacherous body craved him desperately .
I wanted to cling on to him .
To hold him , and scream with pleasure , as he made me feel like I was soaring above water , Sonia , stop it 1 chide myself instantly .
Thad gone crazy , I was behaving like someone who had lost their damn mind .
At this rate .
I was never going to get a clear head , since I couldnt stop thinking about him .
Oh Sonia .
I sighed , and rolled around in my bed … My big comfortable bed .
Nothing like the scraps I had to make use of in bloodmoon .
My luxurious room .
With everything a woman dream of And yet , here I was craving the comfort of my room in bloodmoon .
Because , although uncomfortable , I had found comfort in it .
could ever 1 laid on my back , and my eyes went to the ceiling .
Shunting my eyes , I hoped that if I remained unmoving in that position , I could find sleep before the day completely brightened .
So as I sought for sleep in that position , I allowed my mind to wander freely .
Perhaps , keeping it on a leash was the reason I couldnt find sleep just Yel I allowed my mind to wonder what Ramon would be doing right now .
If even they had noticed I was missing .
And if they had , the measures they put in place after they figured out Maybe he had counted his losses .
Or perhaps , he was gearing for an attack ? To come to the pack , and swoop me into his A fools dream if I had ever seen one , but I embraced it .
It was better than wallowing in self pity .
The next time I felt consciousness , was when I felt a gentle tap on my arm .
my arm .
I opened my eyes to see Lydia smiling at me .
1 yawned , as I straightened into a sitting position .
Stretching , I turned my head about .
I actually slept ? I asked , shocked I had been able to find sleep after tossing and turning all night .
You slept way into the afternoon .
Your father wants you to join the family for lunch .
I told him you dont feel too well because of the sudden -change your body had to endure .
He insists you must show up for dinner , Lydia revealed .
her a weak , but appreciative smile .
She had done extremely well to buy me some some time .
The last thing I wanted was to cat A shower first , and some new clothes , then maylie the urge to eat would arise .
I brought several dresses you you can choose from Lydia clapped in excitement .
I didnt exactly share in her excitement but I had to force some sort of joy .
About thirty minutes later , I had a much needed shower , and changed into a recognizable dress .
That made me feel much better .
I was certainly beginning to feel at home .
However , I still couldnt find the urge to eat .
Lydia left me alone when she failed to convince me to eat something .
1 was practically staring into space , when someone knocked , and opened my door .

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I didnt look up , but by their scent , I knew it was Seth Is there a reason youre seated by the window , staring at nothing ? he asked , drawing closer to me .
I still didnt look at him , but I smiled to let him know I had heard him 125 PM c c • Chapter 179 Seth leaned on the wall beside me , and I could just feel him staring at me .
He didnt say a word , but just kept on staring Do you want something , Seth ? I asked when I was tired of him just staring at me without saying anything .
Im just wondering whats on your mind .
Im also curious about how you changed so much , he replied .
Changed ? I whipped my head to the side and gazed his way in wait for an explanation .
Theres something different about you .
Something more mature .
But thats not all .
I cant feel your wolf either .
Shes usually the brightest star in the room .
She announces your presence .
When shes not acting shy of course .
He smiled .
My eyes watered .
Out of everyone , I knew it was on brand for him to notice my missing wolf .
He would usually tell me he comes around me to peace whenever his heart wasnt at rest .
And it was all thanks to my wolf .
What is it ? his forehead creased with worry when he saw the tears that had gathered in my eyes .
Nothing I sniffled , and tossed my face to the other side .
feel I know its not nothing , but I wont push you to tell me just yet .
Rather , I want to know what happened when it was rumored you were dead .
What really happened to you , Sonia ? he asked , concern heavy in his voice .
I thought back to that day .
Every time I did , I drew a blank .
My memory stopped at leaving Ramons room .
What happened after , was still a mystery to me to this day .
But somehow , I managed to escape a near death experience .
It had shaped a lot of my thoughts in recent times .
Sonia ? Seth called , and I jerked out of my head , and faced him .
This may come as a surprise to you , but I swear Seth , I dont remember a thing All I know is that when I woke up , I couldnt feel my wolf anymore .
I thought I had lost her for good .
But I would feel her presence randomly .
Mostly , when any of my emotions are heightened , I explained to him He pursed his lips , as his face squeezed into a frown .
What is it , Seth ? I asked .
Theres a book that can help you .
But its with You now about mums book to me ? I asked before I could stop myself .
He looked at me with a puzzled expression , but behind that mask , I could tell he knew exactly what I was talking about .