Chapter 20 Early that morning , Issac woke from an ominous dream .
Outside , the winter felt like an ice age .
In the below zero temperatures , he opened his window , letting snow cover him .
A self imposed punishment .
Issac envied Lucas deeply .
He could openly stand beside Evelyn , support her through difficulties , raise a beautiful child with her everything Issac had dreamed of in his youth , now forever beyond his reach .
In his dream , those soft lips hed kissed countless times spoke with icy finality : Are you trying to kill me a second time , Issac ? Come any closer , and Ill refuse the surgery .
If thats what you want , Ill die in front of you again .
Issac looked terrible .
These nightmares always left him cold and trembling .
Dr.
York had warned him that fighting through panic attacks wasnt the solution .
So he grabbed his medication , hands shaking as he poured too many pills into his mouth , teeth clenching .
So bitter .
The surgery light came on .
Lucas stood in the emergency stairwell , encountering Issac lighting a cigarette .
I dont smoke , Lucas said , eyeing him complexly , refusing the offered cigarette .
Issac didnt seem offended , his face unnaturally flushed as he lowered his gaze .
Leaning against the door , Issac stared through the smoke hazily .
Arent you nervous ? he asked softly .
Evelyn promised me , Lucas answered indirectly .
Shell be fine .
Of course he was nervous , but he couldnt show it .
With both a sick woman and a young child at home , Lucas had to stand strong as the familys pillar .
If he showed fear , who would comfort Eva and Evelyn ? A month ago theyd been rivals , now they shared the same anxiety .
The two men stood apart , their breath visible in the winter air .
Never married ? TM Its Too Late for Your Expired Regrets 141 % Chapter 20 Issac lit a second cigarette , the lighter briefly illuminating his sweating face in the dim stairwell .
He held it without smoking , watching the red ember burn .
Never will , he gave a bitter laugh .
Dont want to ruin anyone elses life .
Im such a bastard … At least you know it , Lucas said coldly .
Youre running a fever .
Thanks for caring .
I dont want you to die , Lucas said suddenly .
If you died , it would be unfair to me .
You occupy too much space in Evelyns life I have to admit that .
If you died , shed remember you forever .
Shed build a tomb for you in her heart , leaving the other half for Eva .
That would leave too little room for me .
I cant accept that .
For three years , Ive been the one by her side , giving her everything .
Issac , if youre still human , if you feel any guilt , please stop disturbing her .
Stay successful , remain the arrogant bastard in her memory thats the only way she can truly forget you .
The stairwell was windy , making Lucas speak slowly .
Issac listened in silence until the cigarette burned his fingers .
As if waking from a dream , he nodded .
Alright .
Lucas was right .
Sophias death wasnt Evelyns fault .
Hed tortured her with that excuse for five years , nearly driving her to death multiple times .
Issacs throat was too dry to speak .
He exhaled hotly , mouth open as if to say more , but Lucas left without looking at him .
His phone kept buzzing probably Dr.
York calling .

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She was a dedicated psychiatrist who , despite her professional expertise , could never unlock the chains weighing on Issacs heart .
Issac understood his own illness perfectly .
The cure was simple : forget Evelyn .
But his longing to see her was like a stolen flame .
He was Prometheus chained to the cliff , his flesh eternally devoured by eagles , yet welcoming the torture .
The surgery had been going for an hour and a half .
Though the doctors had prepared them for a long procedure , Lucas couldnt calm his anxiety .
He sat on the bench outside , head in hands , praying .
14.3 % Chapter 20 As a former doctor , hed been a firm atheist .
Only now , with someone he loved facing life and death behind those doors , did he understand why so many people prayed in hospitals .
Family of the patient ? Is the family here ? The operating room door opened briefly .
Lucas jumped up , looking anxiously at the nurse .
Sign this critical condition notice .
The nurse pointed to the white paper .
Lucas froze .
As a doctor , hed asked countless families to sign these forms , but now , his hands shook so badly he could barely hold the pen .
Even knowing this didnt necessarily mean something had gone wrong .
The nurse was clearly in a hurry .
Lucas forced himself to steady his hand , signing his name before she rushed back into surgery .
His eyes reddened .
Unable to sit still any longer , he paced anxiously .
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