Chapter 6 Pax was gone .
Not just gone erased .
His things had disappeared overnight , vanishing so cleanly that if not for the faint indentation his side of the mattress still held , I might have thought he had never been here at all The small , suffocating apartment we had shared for the past two years now felt eerily … spacious .
I stood in the center of the room , staring at the empty space where his belongings used to be .
The closet door , once barely able to close from the weight of our combined mess , now hung slightly ajar hollow , unburdened .
Even his scent , that faint mix of cedar and citrus , was already beginning to fade .
He hadnt left a note .
No message .
No half hearted explanation scrawled on a scrap of paper .
Nothing Just silence .
I swallowed , exhaling slowly So , that was it , a clean break .
A quiet , unspoken ending .
Maybe this was for the best .
This way , at least , I wasnt the one who had to walk away first .
Two days ago , I had posted a question online on Reddit : Im leaving the country in seven days .
I havent told my boyfriend yet .
How do I break it to him ? The comments had been ruthless .
Selfish .
Cruel .
Heartless .
18:02 Barkup Girl No More : Adios To My V Card and My First Love 46.1 % Chapter 6 They accused me of never planning a future with him , of leading him on , of being too much of a coward to be honest .
And the worst part ? They were right .
Between him and my future , I chose my future .

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I had never truly considered another option .
I wanted to laugh at how absurd it all was , but my lips wouldnt move , frozen in something tight and bitter .
And yet … Now that I thought about it , Paxs act had never been flawless .
The cracks had always been there , thin and almost imperceptible , but there nonetheless .
The night we met, I was working a part time shift at a bar when a drunk customer grabbed my wrist , pulling me closer with the kind of entitlement that came from knowing no one would stop him .
Pax had .
He had stepped in , effortlessly peeling the mans fingers off my arm , his presence alone enough to make the guy stumble back with a mumbled curse .
He hadnt just defended me he had handled the situation , smooth and composed , as if confrontation was something he had been raised to navigate .
Then he turned to me , gaze flickering over my face , checking .
Are you okay ? His voice had been calm , steady .
And before I even had a chance to answer , he had taken my phone , punched in his number , and saved it .
I should have known then .
The way he carried himself the quiet confidence , the unconscious authority it wasnt something a struggling college student could fake .
But he had smiled , easy and unbothered , and said , 18:02 Backup Girl No More : Adios To My V Card and My First Love 46.3 % Chapter 6 Im just a scholarship kid trying to get by .
That expensivé suit he had been wearing ? Borrowed from set , he claimed .
Some talent agency needed a background actor to play a rich heir .
Lucky me , huh ? This is probably the nicest thing Ill ever wear .
And I had believed him .
I was even naïve enough to help him look for more part time jobs , thinking I was helping him the way he had helped me .
The rest was predictable .
He chased , I hesitated .
He persisted , I fell .
We moved into this tiny apartment together , vowing to work hard , to build something a future .
But I understood now .
That future was just something I had to fight for , sounds so ridiculous …..
What I had thought was struggling together had only been a game to him an experiment , a pastime , a lie he lived simply because he could .
I didnt turn on the light .
The room felt too empty , too unfamiliar in the dark .
Then my phone vibrated twice against the nightstand .
The screen flickered to life , casting a faint glow across the sheets .
A message Pax .
An image My passport .
Accidentally took this with me .
My fingers curled around the edge of the blanket , the fabric cool beneath my skin .
A second message appeared .
18:02 Backup Girl No More : Adios To My V Card and My First Love 46.5 % Chapter 6 .
Why are you even getting this ? Where exactly are you going ? Stared at the words , my pulse skipping for reasons I didnt understand .
vivie and and My First Love