Chapter 185 Chapter 185 ࿄ 、 ཊཱི 37 % +13 The floodgate of tears spilled over , bathing her red cheeks .
It grew stronger , and stronger , what were you thinking !? His fists clenched at his sides as he paced the room .
If I had known who you were , we would have never gotten together .
I would have avoided this by all means .
I would damn well never have touched you during your heat .
Emeriel recoiled as if he had slapped her .
But all Daemonikai saw was the reality of their situation .
It crashed into him like an avalanche .
He would have to mate again .
The wide hole in his heart where his family used to be still gaped open , growing wider with every passing day .
And now , he would have to do it all over again Despair turned his stomach .
I cannot do this .
The very idea of risking his heart once again sickened him .
I will not do this .
EMERIEL One would think that after hurting so much , for so long , over the same reason , Emeriel would have developed some immunity to this pain in particular .
But one would be wrong .
kind of Nothing could have prepared Emeriel for the depth of the agony that came with her beloveds words , no matter how much she had expected them .
She had expected his rejection , expected him to push her away .
But what she had not expected was the sheer passion behind every syllable .
The raw , abject sincerity , the coiled rage , as he told her , in no uncertain terms , that he did not want her .
Emeriel shattered .
The words sliced her to pieces , cutting deeper than she thought words ever could .
She had prepared herself for this moment , or at least she thought she had .
But seeing the conviction , the determination , watching the flickers of yellow come and go in his eyes as his beast hovered just beneath the surface , mad as hell just like the man himself it was too much .
Stop .
Please stop .
His restless feet came to a stop and he faced her once more .
I lost everything , Galilea .
Everything that ever mattered to me is gone .
For millennia , my family were my light , they were everything I knew , and I lost them .
They took my life , my heart and soul .
To be loved like this , what would it feel like Emeriel would never know .

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She grabbed at her chest , trying to physically hold herself together .
As if clutching her heart could somehow soothe the river of pain flowing from it .
It did not help .
Nothing could .
The ache was too great , it was simply too much .
And it wasnt just hers it was his .
From the moment Emeriel rose from sleep , she had felt his anguish .
Even when he tried to be calm , when he battled to keep it contained , she had felt every misery , every anger and sorrow he carried .
Speaking of his family , had her nearly suffocating , as though she , too , were being buried under it .
Crushing and merciless , until Emeriel could no longer tell where his pain ended and hers began .
Please , stop , I beg of you .
All that is left is this … this rage .
Bitterness .
All that is left is this need to destroy , and gods , do I wish to massacre every single human and Bathe .
In .
Their .
Blood .
His eyes turned bloodshot he began to pace again .
I will not take a mate , and I 1/2 15 : 52 / Thu , Jan 16 Chapter 185 | ༠༥ ༩ 37 % .
+13 certainly will not take a human mate .
I will kill us both before I let that happen .
Put me out of my misery and send you back to whatever creator thought it would be fun to do this ! Be it Ukrae , the Fates , or the damn Moon Goddess ! Daemon Emeriel took a step closer .
My heart .
Heavens , my heart … Do not come near me ! he barked , his deadly glare stopping her in her tracks .
I am NOT feeding that bond any more than its already been fed .
Stay the hell away from me ! The storm swallowed her .
I had no choice ! Emeriel screamed .
It came from deep within her .
From every part of her shattered being .
I have never had a choice in any of this ! Since the day I was born , every part of my life has been dictated for me .
My own identity chosen for me by my parents ! I had no choice when I was sold into slavery .
I was brought here , my freedom ripped away , and as if that was not enough , my own body turned against me ! King Daemonikai frozen mid step , watching her , as Emeriels mind screamed at her to stop .
To rein in the torrent , but Emeriel could not .
She simply could … not .
My own body betrayed me , changing , going into heats … I never wanted any of this ! Ever ! she cried , raw and frenzied .
I just wanted to be a normal female .
But I cant because I was suddenly a Syren , and worse than that , I belonged to someone .
I had no choice in becoming a Syren , just like I had no choice in who I belonged to ! Every scream was a loaded rifle , shooting pain for bullets .
She was sobbing again , unable to help it .
My whole life , every choice , has been taken from me … Closing the distance between them , Emeriel beat at his solid chest with her fists .
You are not the only one who has been forced into this ! I never had a choice either ! S stop treating me like I tried to trap you , like I wanted this ! I didnt ask them- She pointed upward , her words cut off by her own sobs -to do this to us ! I never asked for any of this ! Her fists pounded against his chest again , and again , her strength draining with each blow .
I am sorry for the lies ; I am sorry for the deceit .
But it was the only way I knew to survive .
You and your people would have killed me ! I needed to survive too ! The last of her strength left her , and Emeriel collapsed to the floor in front of him , her body folding in on itself , as she wept , body shaking uncontrollably , drained and exhausted .
I was a victim too , she whispered , her voice barely audible through the tears .
I was a 色